Its now or never | Ramblings from me

A few months ago I read something that really stirred things up for me and changed my life. I read the following message from a daily email called “simple truths”.

“Nearly everyone postpones one grand thing or a collection of mighty hopes and dreams. Between the quote marks of our lives are phrases like these: “When things slow down…when I finish my degree…when I get certified…as I acquire a deeper knowledge base…when I have kids…when the kids are grown…when I get well…when I marry…when I divorce…when I retire…when I get that promotion, that raise, that job, that house, that whatever the fill-in-the blank is for your specific postponing of life…” Your Life Begins When You Do. You may think you are postponing the longing of your soul until life aligns itself with your vision, until elements conspire to be more favorable…but as it happens, life just lolls along at the same remarkable consistent and disinterested cadence. Life is impartial. YOUR personal, subjective life (dreams, satisfactions, contentment, achievements, vision, fullness, passion, aspirations) begins when you begin. Embrace the truth of your purpose each minute of your precious life…for how very true it is that life begins when you do. So, why wait another minute? The life you’re waiting for…begins when you do!”

After reading that message I printed it out and added it to my “inspirational” bulletin board in my home office. I read it every time I would sit in front of my computer to edit. I honestly meditated on every word.

When my Dad had his heart attack May 5th my world stopped. For three and a half days I watch my Daddy lay in bed at the hospital. I was scared. But God is amazing, and my Dad pulled through and he is doing great.

Its funny how something so serious can all of sudden make you stop in your tracks and really look at your life. When I came home from the hospital and finally got the chance to sit in front of my computer I read that message above. I read it over and over and over….I felt like it was speaking to me. Between the quote marks of my own life I had a ton of phrases like “when i pay my equipment off, when I book that wedding, when we pay the truck off, when we have kids, no we need to do this before we have kids, we need to have this much saved before we have kids, when I get caught up, when things slow down, when things pick up, when, when, when, when”.

I realized right then and there, my life wasn’t going to begin until I did. At that moment a million things started running through my mind. What if we could afford for me to quit my day job and go full time with my photography. What if Brandon said yes go for it. What if he said no! I would love to do what I love to do and there is no doubt about it. Should I just jump and not look back?

I was raised by two fabulous strong women. One is my mother who is my best friend and the other is my grandmother Betty who I adore and respect completely. I knew that if I needed any ones support more now than ever I needed them two. During our NYC trip i brought up the fact that I was ready to start my life and to not look back. I was ready to do what I love to do, take the risk, jump on the roller coaster, and take a leap of faith. They both agreed that it was my time and that its now or never. Before the babies come, before life gets too complicated, before we are too tired to work as hard as we do. Now is the time to take my chances and not look back.

When I came home, I had a very serious and long talk with Brandon. And to my surprise he was very supportive and said “let’s do it, go for it babe, I love you and I am proud of you”. Those were just the words I needed to hear!

So with all of that said I am proud to say that as of July 1st I will be a full time photographer! Wait, let me say it one more time! I WILL BE A FULL TIME PHOTOGRAPHER!!!!! Wahooooo whoop whoop oh yeah!!!! I will be my own boss. I will finally get to do what I love to do! All of my hard work, endless nights, no sleep, long days, no breaks, work every weekend, ALL OF IT PAID OFF!!! My business is debt free and ready to go! I did it all by myself! No one helped me make those payments, no one made me work those hours, no one but me, myself, and I.

I am so blessed to have been given this talent, and I thank God for that. I am blessed that my hubby stuck by me, and always pushed me even when I wanted to give up and go sit by the pool. I am so blessed to have friends who were understanding every time I had to miss out on social events. I am so blessed to have a wonderful and supportive family who backed me up along the way. I am so blessed for all of my wonderful clients! I have enjoyed every moment with all of you, and I cherish all of the friendships I have made. And to my sweet sweet Poo… thank you for always making me laugh and for always being the best model for my new props!

When I told the Poo the big news this is what she had to say….

I think she was bored! Ha

I know the road ahead wont be easy. I am sure along the way there will be speed bumps, detours, fast lanes, and slow lanes. But I am ready, confident, and secure! And so, to those of you out there who have just started chasing your dreams, keep chasing them! Never give up!